OhEMGEE!ITS ME?
Just your average girl,funny rants,photos,venting,etc?
I Played "Hookey" Today
Not really. I was with my grandmother in the ER last night. All night. I didn't get back until late and I had an essay that was due today, along with a bunch of other work. I tried to do it last night, but I fell asleep. So I woke up around 5 am and said "There is no way that I'm going today with NOTHING completed." That would be the end of me! Ahh, I know my friends are going to be pissed with me,but whatever.
Also I'm in alot of pain today for some reason.
This sucks.
Dreading Monday, BUT HAPPY MAMA'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please,tell me,is there anyone who actually looks forward to this day?If you do,what you have sure must be good!!!!!!!! Just kidding.
Ahhh well yesterday,nothing really happened. I bought clothes...I went dress shopping.Oh,yes,I got invited to this "formal ball" (I KNOW,HOW PRINCESS LIKE?), and I have to find a gown.
I also bought a few casual/church dresses yesterday.
Today was church.
HAPPY MAMA'S DAYYY
To not only my birth mothers but to anyone who has even attempted to raise a child!!!!
Men and children, I hope you gave your mothers the very respect that they deserve today!! AS YOU SHOULD BE DOING EVERYDAY!.
I Hope You're Okay,Cause If You Ain't, WHO CARES,ITS FRIDAY?!!!
Ohh man,what a wet and soggy day for us New Yorkers?
I'm doing pretty swell today, I suppose. A load of homework, but overall, I'm okay.
Happy Friday sweeties!
Why Am I Playing Victim?
My question tonight though is, why am I choosing to play victim?
Why am I sitting here feeling horrible for myself,
saying that no one understands,
thinking that nobody really knows,
In the end,what will that do for me? Nothing in the end.
I mean like life for me right now is hard.
That's correct. But I'm sure for someone else it's 1,000 times harder.
So I guess what I'm really doing asking God to humble me enough that I'm not stuck on my own life, but that I'm able to be a help to someone in need.
Modestly Yours, (Respect For People Who You Just Don't Like!)
(this is just a rambling, so if it doesn't make sense...forgive me....and stop reading)
You know how at the end of the letter (oh man, watch my old 2nd grade teacher come after me) where you have the closing statement...kind of....you know..
sincerely
truly
love
etc?
Well lately I've been upset at some people who I am not friends with or close too and I've came really close to being disrespectful which is not something that I want to be. I mean if someone was rude to me, I'd honestly would be pretty hurt. Of course I'd be tempted to raise Cain, but I still would get upset.
Now,I'm not even bothering to get upset. I'll just simply say to that person,or I'll just write it down to myself in a journal depending on if it's the appropriate thing to do or not.
How does this relate to my topic of "Modestly Yours"
I'm officially not too proud to humble myself and keep something to myself, or if I'm going to actually tell the other person, to do it in a way that is respectful to the person,to myself, and more importantly to God.
But you know what? The people who we DON'T like should get to experince the most of our humble nature! They mostly likely need it the most. And it will do just as much good as it will do for me as it will do for them!
<3
Weakness,Dizziness,and Shortness of Breath (excuse the grammar but i don't feel well)
these symptoms suck.
and then earlier today (3am) I had horrible heartburn and couldnt go back to sleep.
so then i went to school today and one of my annoying teachers was trying to be funny and began drawing hearts on my paper, and when I told him to stop he gave me an attitude.
I was like,"hey,listen, i feel like crap. i don't feel well...please get off my paper."
yes,I said it VERY politely.
then he gets an attitude and was like finish your work,that's all I'm asking you to do,blah blah blah.
I think I might have rolled my eyes, so I better go apologize to him.
i'm trying to take a bunch of college classes right now,i don't need his sorry behind irratating me .and im sick? ohh no
but yeah,tomorrow I'll just apologize tomorrow.
hugs,
<3
Thanks for playing my little game!
Thanks to those who did it.How sweet are ya'll?!?!
I was in soo much pain today. I just wanted to go home, but for some reason I didn't.I'm still looking for my "dream job" it hasn't came just yet.
If you're still reading this you must be completely bored.
Nooo,I do not have some interesting thing to talk about.All I'm doing is blowing smoke out of behind, honestly.
Last night I had the weirdest dream.I was driving and out of know where, paparazi comes and starts to take my picture. I was blinded by all of the flashing lights. It was horrible lol.
Well I'm going to go to sleep for a bit. Then do my research report,gross.
Cheers
Man, Where Is That Tax Return? And Tell Me How YOU'RE doing!
That's different. Okay,let's play a game!
Leave me a comment and tell me in ONE word how you're feeling today.
Vent to me,I'm always venting to you.
If you want,you can even explain it.
Is something bothering you?
Say it.
Alright Carla Rose, You Can Play The Role of The Misunderstood Congresswoman
He handed me a review packet and said that to me, only me. I don't know why this teacher thinks we're such good friends. It's not even funny anymore.I'm just getting bad vibes from him. But then again...I'm just weird.Even though he is the man who originally called me "Lolita" -_-
Well there were so many things that happened today that I don't even know where to begin.So I rather not today,
I'm officially looking for a summer job.
Here's my ideal job..
Some type of nanny/housekeeper/personal assisant/not being outdoors that much work.You know, a job where I can do something that I'm good at..Not something career altering or life changing. Just simple.
I still don't know what I am going to wear tomorrow.
Something vintage inspired...maybe a vintage tee,black or gray skinny jeans,and flats with star earrings?
Just trying to make a statement.
Well congrads to you few beloved readers who've actually read or made a sincere effort to read this blog post until the end. See you tomorrow.
Oh No, I am NOT sharing a Room and Creep Teachers!
I can't believe that my cousin is doing so badly that her mother is thinking about sending her away. I think if worst comes to worst, my mom is going to let her move in with us. I mean I went on vacation with this girl, she's my same age..It'd be fun. I don't know. I'm just so confused on this whole thing. Ehh..I just got comfortable with my room too. Oh well.
School tomorrow; blah. We were off today. Thank God. I still didn't do the part of my research report that's due tomorrow.
Oh well, I'll finish it before I go to bed; while watching Family Guy.
I have to deal with one of my creepo teachers tomorrow. Beautiful..a full period of just me and him.
Grand.
Well it's just 4 days.
Goodnight ya'll <3
Sweet Dreams America
Worried Sick (Literally!)
Oh here we go, hmm. Here is the definition brought to you by the Merriam-Webster :1 : in a literal sense or manner : actually <took the remark literally> <was literally insane>
Wow,okay. I guess I spelled it right...
The word "spelled" doesn't look right to me now either.
Anyway,off to my subject.
Lately I've been worrying myself to the point where I get sick to my stomach! It's horrible. Like, I don't even know anymore. Everything to me just seems so weird....so strange. My father is starting to get stupid again (with an attitude and such) and my best friend is controlled by her boyfriend, so she isn't the same person...I just don't know. I want things to be at least "okay" again. I'm not expecting for my life to be like Full House or the Cosby Show...I just want a little decency and order in my life.
Sometimes I wish I could just leave everything behind,and go far away. If I really wanted to, I could; but the logical side of me KNOWS that not facing my problems will get me no where.
Making peace with God was the first step for me. Knowing that not EVERYTHING in this world can be explained with science and common logic from others but that things do happen for a reason. Knowing that whether I like it or not, it's going to happen God's way...not the way I want.
Well I'm going to nap..maybe I'll feel better then?
<3
Just Letting Go...
For me, just even THINKING about letting go, is hard.
Learning how to give up control is even harder....
I made up my mind not to let myself become sick over worrying.
In a course of a lifetime, what does it really matter?
I'm not saying that I want to become a full-blown bohemian or anything...
I just want to be care free...
Free to live,love,and enjoy life.
No matter the circumstances.
And you thought she was gone..
I can't believe you thought I was gone! I wasn't. Instead I was at the picture posted above. Take a guess of where this is. No,it's not Rhode Island. What I can tell you though is that I did bring a bathing suit and had a very nice vacation!It was sooo relaxing. I even met a guy while I was gone.
Oh yes, and his name is Matt and he lives in New Jersey. He also has a license, which meant if we actually did get serious I wouldn't have to waste my precious gas/train/bus/miles to visit him.
We spent the whole day together! From 8am at the beach, to 12 am him walking me back to my condo.
No offense, but I'm not going to get too serious with this man. I mean,really..it was Spring Break...things happen.
But it can't hurt to flirt!
I've also figured out something else..
Life is just one of those things that you cant ever be so sure about. The older I get, the faster it seems to go by.
And by.
Okay,MA is alright...And being a 'housewife' (Homemaker)
Update:I guess I'm going to MA.Beautiful.
As I was cleaning today, I realized that I was practicing the same routine that I obtained since friday (wake up,clean,feed a family member,clean,answer the phone,take care buisness accounts,etc). I guess I now know how difficult it can be for homemakers.I mean,I already knew they had extremely hard jobs, I just didn't know to what extent. I have no idea why they are so unappreciated.
Well my grandmother's PT will be here soon..better get the floor vaccumed.
RHODE ISLAND? BOOKED?
The Girl....(AND YOUR TAXES ARE DUE MR./MRS THANG!)
I have homework that I should probably do, so I might do it today.
HAPPY TURN IN YOUR TAXES OR ELSE YOU'RE GONNA GET SOME HEAVY FEES FROM MY DEAR OLD UNCLE SAM DAY!
Ain't that just a joy?
Update: I didn't find out whether my dad said yes or not.I'm not going to bring it up around him...because I'm not sure if my mom talked to him yet...I think I'm starting to make myself sick with this problem.I should really calm down because most likely he'll come up with some lame excuse.
Well I'm done for right now...see you later?
"Yeah,I just need ONE more thing! Just one more!"
I guess I'll sound like a hypocrite, but I am doing that right now. So I will announce it to the the public; or the internet, either way, that I am PRAYING that God will do me good just once more so that I can be blessed enough to go away for the weekend.(My mom REALLY wants to go! She said that she'd talk to him tonight!)
Besides that..I took my grandmother to the doctor today:not really the best news..but you know how it is.
I still didn't clean my bathroom....ended up sleeping,at the doctor's office for 3 hours, and playing guitar hero of course...
I beat the easy level...I gave up at medium...that's a bit too hard for me.
Well I'm going to ACTUALLY go and clean. Blasting Cold Play and Panic At The Disco might help.
Goodnight. <3
Things That Upset Me
.When people automatically assume things about a person...either just because of a stero type or the actions made in someone's past history.
.People who think they're better than me or anyone else for that matter.
.World Hunger
.Poverty
.Other things.
On another note...................
I got up at 10:33 this morning.(I know,EXACT timing!!) I'm enjoying this whole sleeping in late thing, God knows I'm going to be one sorry cookie this time next week.
I stayed up and played guitar hero until about 3 in the morning lol. I got a little better at it
Update
Well I lied.I told you that I'd be back later today..but now that today is really yesterday..
That sounds confusing. Okay..basically it's 12:30 am.You should be able to put two and two together right?
And yes! I enjoyed my sleep!! Usually I'm up by 5 am either for church,school,etc. But not today,or yesterday should I say, I stayed my big behind right in the bed.
Just to let everyone know..I'm a little upset right now.
Here's what happened:
For me, it's spring break, (lol), and since my mother is a teacher it's also her break too. She mentioned last week "Oh,we should get your father to take us somewhere so that we can say that we actually did something over break". I happily agreed. Since my parents own 4 weeks worth of timeshare..I went on the little wyndham website, and searched for close properties. I saw this little,cute 3 bedroom villa in Newport,RI. They even had one available for this weekend!! I mapquested directions from here to there; it was only a 3 hour drive. Perfect! Then I even called my older brother, to ask if he could come up from NJ to watch my grandmother while we were gone (just for 2 nights!) and he agreed. Hmm okay,so now we only need gas and food money. Oh, and of course, for my father to take off. But hey, for the last 2 months he's been working so much over time that I thought it wouldn't matter for him to take off (he lost staff at his job..but just recently hired new people!). So I bring it up to him, and he looks at it, and he's like "Ohhhh,that's nice." So here comes this big cheesy grin on my face, ACTUALLY thinking that he was going to go. I then asked him, "Okay can you take off Saturday?". He says "yes,but you and your mother need to tell me what you're going to do." An even bigger smile went on my face. For 7 straight hours I thought I was going to Rhode Island this weekend. Since I wanted to make sure (thank God I did, or else I would have been packing Thursday night and he would have been like what the heck??) that we were still going,I asked him at the laundry mat "So what time are we leaving?" He then was like "No.I'm not going.blah,blah,blah something." I just said "blah,blah,blah" because I don't remember what he said.But I know it wasnt an actual reason for not going.
Yes...ugg.That made me feel SOOOO much better venting.
I mean,I'm not too upset that we're not going. But it's just the fact that we COULD have been.That it's actually a possibility.
To update you..I still didn't clean my bathroom.Although I did clean the kitchen.
OHHHHH FOR THE FIRST TIME I PLAYED GUITAR HERO! I think I might go attempt that game again.It's HARD.
And I did my laundry..I've folded and put away most of it..I'm going to do the rest before I go to bed.
I'm so happy I have this lovely blog to talk to.
I love you blog. Ain't that sad?
Well goodnight lovers and friends.
Today I slept into until 12.
Now I'm off to eat something...then to clean....
then to go to the laundrymat hopefully.
it's a rainy day..but still..I might go to Home Depot and get some blinds...or curtains.and a lamp...yeah..I'll think I will get a lamp.
ahh well I'll be back later
