OhEMGEE!ITS ME?
Just your average girl,funny rants,photos,venting,etc?
Ahh
I'll update ya'll later but trust me they aren't easy people to live with.
Summer Love.
Uggg
because they don't have anywhere to stay
i might not be on as oftennnn
for a while at least
im sending my love to all my readers
<3
Mocha Should Gain Self-Control (Me)
So many things happen in life and I believe that we really don't have control over everything.
It's just the facts
But here's the good news:
We have control over ourselves.
Once we gain the value of self-control, our lives will change. You no longer will be faced with as many problems and complications as you once were. And when you are faced with the various things, you will know how to handle it in a way that will make people think.
Think about it..
Are there any situations that you possibly could have started?
Or on the other hand are there any problems you could have added to?
Ahh,I'm mostly talking to myself tonight. I'm so quick to catch an attitude even if I don't show it.
What a bad habbit?
Been SOOOOO BUSYY
I didn't really go anywhere. Then right after Memorial Day I had school the next day (today) so things have been amazingly crazy.
I want to write a devotional on this thing soon..so I'll probably get to that tomorrow,once things cool down.
Oh man, Dr's appointment tomorrow..Whenever I go to the doctors I always get so nervous of what they're going to say.
All a part of being undiagnosed.
"Oh To Be Beautiful"
This is dedicated to all my little middle and high school girls!
| "Proverbs 31:30 says...Favor is deceitful and beauty is vain; but a woman that feareth the Lord, she shall be praised. |
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I smiled when I read this scripture and gave a big thank you to God for letting me come across it on my way to school. You see, just like the rest of you, I struggle with my self esteem. I want to be popular, I want to be cool, and I want to be considered beautiful by the kids in my High School. Who doesn't? I know it's even harder in Middle School, when kids are even less accepting of those that differ from them. I've been there, and I still am. Yet this scripture really encouraged me, and I hope it encourages you as well. It basically means that favor, or popularity isn't always as great as it seems. Beauty is nice, but in God's eyes...worthless-or at least the kind of beauty that this world emphasizes. It's only the young ladies that fear God, live for him, and do his will that will be praised, or respected and honored. We see this happening all around us. If you were honest with yourself, you'd probably easily see that you have a lot more respect from the kids at school, than some of the so called pretty, popular girls that dress scantily and act in a way that's displeasing to God. So I encourage each of you, to hold your head high in school. It's not favor/popularity, beauty/looks, that define you, but your fear/respect of God. I leave you with this question. Are you setting yourself up for a life of deceit, a life of vain, or a life of praise?" |
It's Been A While
I Played "Hookey" Today
Not really. I was with my grandmother in the ER last night. All night. I didn't get back until late and I had an essay that was due today, along with a bunch of other work. I tried to do it last night, but I fell asleep. So I woke up around 5 am and said "There is no way that I'm going today with NOTHING completed." That would be the end of me! Ahh, I know my friends are going to be pissed with me,but whatever.
Also I'm in alot of pain today for some reason.
This sucks.
Dreading Monday, BUT HAPPY MAMA'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please,tell me,is there anyone who actually looks forward to this day?If you do,what you have sure must be good!!!!!!!! Just kidding.
Ahhh well yesterday,nothing really happened. I bought clothes...I went dress shopping.Oh,yes,I got invited to this "formal ball" (I KNOW,HOW PRINCESS LIKE?), and I have to find a gown.
I also bought a few casual/church dresses yesterday.
Today was church.
HAPPY MAMA'S DAYYY
To not only my birth mothers but to anyone who has even attempted to raise a child!!!!
Men and children, I hope you gave your mothers the very respect that they deserve today!! AS YOU SHOULD BE DOING EVERYDAY!.
I Hope You're Okay,Cause If You Ain't, WHO CARES,ITS FRIDAY?!!!
Ohh man,what a wet and soggy day for us New Yorkers?
I'm doing pretty swell today, I suppose. A load of homework, but overall, I'm okay.
Happy Friday sweeties!
Why Am I Playing Victim?
My question tonight though is, why am I choosing to play victim?
Why am I sitting here feeling horrible for myself,
saying that no one understands,
thinking that nobody really knows,
In the end,what will that do for me? Nothing in the end.
I mean like life for me right now is hard.
That's correct. But I'm sure for someone else it's 1,000 times harder.
So I guess what I'm really doing asking God to humble me enough that I'm not stuck on my own life, but that I'm able to be a help to someone in need.
Modestly Yours, (Respect For People Who You Just Don't Like!)
(this is just a rambling, so if it doesn't make sense...forgive me....and stop reading)
You know how at the end of the letter (oh man, watch my old 2nd grade teacher come after me) where you have the closing statement...kind of....you know..
sincerely
truly
love
etc?
Well lately I've been upset at some people who I am not friends with or close too and I've came really close to being disrespectful which is not something that I want to be. I mean if someone was rude to me, I'd honestly would be pretty hurt. Of course I'd be tempted to raise Cain, but I still would get upset.
Now,I'm not even bothering to get upset. I'll just simply say to that person,or I'll just write it down to myself in a journal depending on if it's the appropriate thing to do or not.
How does this relate to my topic of "Modestly Yours"
I'm officially not too proud to humble myself and keep something to myself, or if I'm going to actually tell the other person, to do it in a way that is respectful to the person,to myself, and more importantly to God.
But you know what? The people who we DON'T like should get to experince the most of our humble nature! They mostly likely need it the most. And it will do just as much good as it will do for me as it will do for them!
<3
Weakness,Dizziness,and Shortness of Breath (excuse the grammar but i don't feel well)
these symptoms suck.
and then earlier today (3am) I had horrible heartburn and couldnt go back to sleep.
so then i went to school today and one of my annoying teachers was trying to be funny and began drawing hearts on my paper, and when I told him to stop he gave me an attitude.
I was like,"hey,listen, i feel like crap. i don't feel well...please get off my paper."
yes,I said it VERY politely.
then he gets an attitude and was like finish your work,that's all I'm asking you to do,blah blah blah.
I think I might have rolled my eyes, so I better go apologize to him.
i'm trying to take a bunch of college classes right now,i don't need his sorry behind irratating me .and im sick? ohh no
but yeah,tomorrow I'll just apologize tomorrow.
hugs,
<3
Thanks for playing my little game!
Thanks to those who did it.How sweet are ya'll?!?!
I was in soo much pain today. I just wanted to go home, but for some reason I didn't.I'm still looking for my "dream job" it hasn't came just yet.
If you're still reading this you must be completely bored.
Nooo,I do not have some interesting thing to talk about.All I'm doing is blowing smoke out of behind, honestly.
Last night I had the weirdest dream.I was driving and out of know where, paparazi comes and starts to take my picture. I was blinded by all of the flashing lights. It was horrible lol.
Well I'm going to go to sleep for a bit. Then do my research report,gross.
Cheers
Man, Where Is That Tax Return? And Tell Me How YOU'RE doing!
That's different. Okay,let's play a game!
Leave me a comment and tell me in ONE word how you're feeling today.
Vent to me,I'm always venting to you.
If you want,you can even explain it.
Is something bothering you?
Say it.
Alright Carla Rose, You Can Play The Role of The Misunderstood Congresswoman
He handed me a review packet and said that to me, only me. I don't know why this teacher thinks we're such good friends. It's not even funny anymore.I'm just getting bad vibes from him. But then again...I'm just weird.Even though he is the man who originally called me "Lolita" -_-
Well there were so many things that happened today that I don't even know where to begin.So I rather not today,
I'm officially looking for a summer job.
Here's my ideal job..
Some type of nanny/housekeeper/personal assisant/not being outdoors that much work.You know, a job where I can do something that I'm good at..Not something career altering or life changing. Just simple.
I still don't know what I am going to wear tomorrow.
Something vintage inspired...maybe a vintage tee,black or gray skinny jeans,and flats with star earrings?
Just trying to make a statement.
Well congrads to you few beloved readers who've actually read or made a sincere effort to read this blog post until the end. See you tomorrow.
Oh No, I am NOT sharing a Room and Creep Teachers!
I can't believe that my cousin is doing so badly that her mother is thinking about sending her away. I think if worst comes to worst, my mom is going to let her move in with us. I mean I went on vacation with this girl, she's my same age..It'd be fun. I don't know. I'm just so confused on this whole thing. Ehh..I just got comfortable with my room too. Oh well.
School tomorrow; blah. We were off today. Thank God. I still didn't do the part of my research report that's due tomorrow.
Oh well, I'll finish it before I go to bed; while watching Family Guy.
I have to deal with one of my creepo teachers tomorrow. Beautiful..a full period of just me and him.
Grand.
Well it's just 4 days.
Goodnight ya'll <3
Sweet Dreams America
Worried Sick (Literally!)
Oh here we go, hmm. Here is the definition brought to you by the Merriam-Webster :1 : in a literal sense or manner : actually <took the remark literally> <was literally insane>
Wow,okay. I guess I spelled it right...
The word "spelled" doesn't look right to me now either.
Anyway,off to my subject.
Lately I've been worrying myself to the point where I get sick to my stomach! It's horrible. Like, I don't even know anymore. Everything to me just seems so weird....so strange. My father is starting to get stupid again (with an attitude and such) and my best friend is controlled by her boyfriend, so she isn't the same person...I just don't know. I want things to be at least "okay" again. I'm not expecting for my life to be like Full House or the Cosby Show...I just want a little decency and order in my life.
Sometimes I wish I could just leave everything behind,and go far away. If I really wanted to, I could; but the logical side of me KNOWS that not facing my problems will get me no where.
Making peace with God was the first step for me. Knowing that not EVERYTHING in this world can be explained with science and common logic from others but that things do happen for a reason. Knowing that whether I like it or not, it's going to happen God's way...not the way I want.
Well I'm going to nap..maybe I'll feel better then?
<3
Just Letting Go...
For me, just even THINKING about letting go, is hard.
Learning how to give up control is even harder....
I made up my mind not to let myself become sick over worrying.
In a course of a lifetime, what does it really matter?
I'm not saying that I want to become a full-blown bohemian or anything...
I just want to be care free...
Free to live,love,and enjoy life.
No matter the circumstances.
And you thought she was gone..
I can't believe you thought I was gone! I wasn't. Instead I was at the picture posted above. Take a guess of where this is. No,it's not Rhode Island. What I can tell you though is that I did bring a bathing suit and had a very nice vacation!It was sooo relaxing. I even met a guy while I was gone.
Oh yes, and his name is Matt and he lives in New Jersey. He also has a license, which meant if we actually did get serious I wouldn't have to waste my precious gas/train/bus/miles to visit him.
We spent the whole day together! From 8am at the beach, to 12 am him walking me back to my condo.
No offense, but I'm not going to get too serious with this man. I mean,really..it was Spring Break...things happen.
But it can't hurt to flirt!
I've also figured out something else..
Life is just one of those things that you cant ever be so sure about. The older I get, the faster it seems to go by.
And by.
Okay,MA is alright...And being a 'housewife' (Homemaker)
Update:I guess I'm going to MA.Beautiful.
As I was cleaning today, I realized that I was practicing the same routine that I obtained since friday (wake up,clean,feed a family member,clean,answer the phone,take care buisness accounts,etc). I guess I now know how difficult it can be for homemakers.I mean,I already knew they had extremely hard jobs, I just didn't know to what extent. I have no idea why they are so unappreciated.
Well my grandmother's PT will be here soon..better get the floor vaccumed.
